Why I love you?

I just ended a 50 minute phone call with my boyfriend. There are tears in my eyes. Why? Well it won't be easy to explain. I know myself pretty well, better than many know themselves. I know that I always like to take charge, I know that I'm anxious about things being the way I want or picture them to be, and I've always been very independent in my decision making; even though I may ask for opinions, in at the end I always, always, end up doing what better suits my own thoughts, so being this way complicates things a lot. Now, I've found out that having a partner whom you intend to spend your life with is such a challenge, and I know that everybody thinks they know that, but it's not until you actually are IN a relationship where you are considering for sure to spend a lifetime with someone that all kinds of questions come to your mind: What if I do this and he reacts this way and I can't put up with it? What if I'm wrong and this is not what I've always waited for?, What if I am making all this up and I'm just trying to sell my brain the idea of having found "the one"?. Well, the answer isn't easy, but I know that it lies beneath my skin , exactly at the center of my chest level, sometimes this feeling even makes me feel a bit suffocated because of how fast my heart beats, and then it goes all the way through my arms and body. As you read, I can hardly describe with words the feeling I have right now, that's exactly the reason I came up with this writing and a list, because every one of these sentences just increase the feeling poorly described above, to a 200 percent higher level. (I had to write it in second person especially for when he reads it) *I love you because you show me with your actions that you are happier when I'm happy about something you did for me. *I love you because I read it in your eyes the way you look at me when I am telling you something that worries / bothers / upsets / stresses / hurts / ME and that look is exactly the same one: "I love you anyway, I'm here for you ". *I love you because even at your worst, or when you are upset and I look inside your eyes the only thing I can find is love and peace and you touch me by that feeling. *I love you because the way you do things is so different than mine that it gives my world a whole new perspective in life that I never even considered before. *I love you because you bring the best out of me just by being you. *I love you because when I close my eyes and think of sharing my life with you grants me this peaceful, loving, blessed feeling that I only get after being in a prayer. *I love you because there is honesty in you that can't be denied. *I love you because sometimes you are like a little baby boy who can't even lie without getting caught. *I love you because you spend more time thinking, and doing things for, with or about me than you spend in any other activity. *I love you because you make my important things to be important to you as well. *I love you because when I'm hesitant about doing something you always have the best answer. *I love you because there isn't any situation that happens to my life, good or bad that I don't want to share with you, and you will never think that it is silly of me to do that. *I love you because I can't stop thinking about how lucky I am to have found you. *I love you and I say it out loud even in my sleep. *I love you because if I had been able one day to draw a picture about the ideal person that I wish I had in my life, the result would have been you inside and out. *I love you because you respect my points of view without letting me know yours and you find a balance between them. *I love you because you are so good at making me feel that you are right, but that I'm no less right than you are. *I love you because you do whatever you can to please me and when you don't you always figure out a way to make it up to me. *I love you because every wrong decision I've made throughout my life brought me TO YOU. And I could keep going on all day listing the reasons why I love him, but I don't need it anymore because these tears of joy that come up every time I read even one of those sentences, are just an affirmation to all the physical signs that my body conscious and unconsciously express by itself. “I LOVE YOU JASON, AND EVERYDAY I FIND ONE MORE REASON TO SAY: YES YOU ARE THE ONE”