I think I never ended this entry because I lost hope. (The first part was written in May 06 and its saved on the archives here). Today, a year before that email that made me fly to the moon and back, I can tell: It was just a dream. I think that we can fall head over heels for somebody even when you don't have a deep knowdlegment of the person but in your heart you WISH that person was the person you dreamed he was. I was wrong.
This person might be the man of MY dreams. This guy do have a lot of traits, I'll never say the opposit, but this "prince" I build up only on my mind, is just a stranger to me... just as I am to him. I might know him through his photography, I might know him through his words. But I will never know how it is to be with him since we are way to far from each other. Yes, I thought since I was 21 years old that one day, I was going to marry him.... yeah right!... we haven't seen each other in seven years now... and I'm completely sure that he is not meant to be with me.
Last year when he sent that email I just couldnt believe what I was reading....A year before that, I know that he is just a poet and a good writter... But in his real world, there isn't any girl he met while couching a swimming team...
Thanks anyways Philly for the magic of making me dream of you for so many years! you'll always be in my mind.
2 comments:
ok. so i'm missing the part that tells what makes you so sure now that he isn't the "prince." What did he tell u now?
He didn't. He stop emailing me or calling (he actually called me at work just couple times before the email) I called him once and talked about the email on the phone, he told me that he really felt that way. I was waiting for an email after that, an email that I never got...Either he has already a girlfriend or he just sent that email because he felt lonely at the time. I think I'll never know.
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